Sam (jevim) wrote,

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Where I Am and Where I'm Going

I'm a boring person now. I have boring straight-laced friends from work. I don't do much other than sit at home and play games. I rarely touch alcohol.

Am I happy with this? I don't know, because I don't know what the other option is like. Hard to make a good decision when you don't really know about both sides, right?

Until recently, I guess I had a bad assumption that no one in my type of field (software programming) lived a party lifestyle. All the guys in college who were engineers sorta had to stay on the narrow, because there was so much work to do. I guess it was a bad place to draw a sample from. Or at least an imperfect sample.

But I've been getting to know a self-professed raver. And I'm thinking that it's not bad over there. Just having fun, dancing, spending time with friends and acquaintences. Part of me wants to give it a try.

I don't think I can do it from where I'm starting, though. I don't know anyone who can help me make connections, anyone who can guide me into that arena. Well, I know someone, but they're on the wrong edge of the continent. Of course, I have a simple "excuse" for why I might move closer to that person: my fiancee grew up on the other coast.

So I can leave the situation that I have behind and maybe get into a more social environment. Try new things, meet new people. But this adds more questions for me, that I don't think I can answer tonight. Am I simply unhappy with what I have now, and anything is better, or do I like what I have now, but wonder if there is something better?

I don't think I'm unhappy. I don't know that I'm really happy either, though.

But I've already send a few electronic resumes to west-coast places via Monster. We'll see where that goes. Regardless, I think Lisana would like going back to California.

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