January 6th, 2003
I just can't keep my mouth shut. babyraver mentioned a show to me on the WB tonight, so I told my TiVo to grab it. (Of course, it came up because of the subject that was in the description for the show tonight.) I gotta say it was an interesting show.
But, of course, I couldn't contain myself and I go blabbing about it to babyraver who won't see it for like 3 hours after I saw it (coastal time different). I feel like such a stupid fucking idiot.
Of course, it didn't help that I was sorta quiet in game and I think she was busy doing things as well, I guess I just started reading in that she was pissed at me. (Of course, she should be. She told me about the episode, and I was spoiling it for her!)
And this is why I don't do well with people. I just read too much in, don't say anything, and get hurt. It's why I wanted my TSO character to be "separate" from me. But... in this case, the person I've messed up with knows who I am, and I'm not hiding behind the character. *sigh*
There are times where I just feel like such an idiot...
Current Mood: stupid
Oh now you're just being silly... I was never mad at you. "^_^" If I ever get upset with you, i'd tell you straight up. You fall under the rank of friend in my mind, and I want to give you more respect than that.
I did enjoy our conversation tonight about tonight's episode of everwood. For the most part, you weren't really revealing anything today. We were simply talking content as far as marijuana and how it's accepted in the eye of society today...
But when you started to mention a little more.. the death of someone, I just felt I should stop ya before did accidently revealed something to me. *smile* But even still.. if you had revealed anything to me.. it wouldn't have mattered. I will still enjoy watching the show (haven't sat down to watch yet still lol).
But um... yeah... if I was mad at you for something so simple.. u should have the attitude of "fuck it" . It's not that big of a deal.. if I get upset over something silly, I'm probably just having a bad day and it's just me wearing thin or something.
And don't be afraid to ask too. If you have doubt in your mind, the best thing to do is just ask. Only stupid question is the one not asked!
*huggles* We still cool, baby! I luvs ya and Lis! *smooches*
|Date:||January 7th, 2003 07:22 am (UTC)|| |
I just get stupid when I have to deal with people and things don't go right. This is why I tend to shy away from social interaction. Even now part of me is screaming to not reply at all, to just slink away into a corner and hope that in a few days it will have been forgotten about.
I think I could count my close friends on the fingers of a single hand. And still not need a thumb. I guess I'm flattered that you think of me as a friend. You are one of the closest friends I have (how pitiful is that!), at least in my being comfortable having candid conversations.
I feel like I'm just being stupid and making a big deal out of this. I just should delete this real quick. I should just post a thank you and get away from the conversation. I'm not even looking at the screen right now (thank god I can touch-type!), and it helps me a little bit. (Freaky, no?) Seeing what I've said just makes it harder. I can think these things in my mind, but I can't say them or see them written down. (I wouldn't be much fun in person if I continually kept my eyes closed, now would I?)
At least this pointless rambling is under my journal. I think I have a readership of two. *chuckle* (I guess it's better than a readership of zero! 'cause then I'd just be talking to myself. *giggle*)
No need to fret, my pet! It's all gravy!
Shit happens... and when it does, just deal with it and move on. If you sweep things under the carpet and then move on you might be in store for some trouble.
But like I was saying earlier... this incident is just so .. so....
grrr.. I'm having a hard time thinking of a word. lol
It's nothing to worry yourself over. How's that? tee hee... make sense? *huggles*